21 .12 . 2012

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Woke up after my seven and a half hours sleep as usual.


Went to have breakfast and got ready to go to work. On my way to the train station I was feeling as if my neck was slightly twisted (torticollis) and thought "oh no! I must have slept in the wrong position for some reason" and tried to walk as tall as I could in order to stretch the bones, in vain.

I didn't give it any further thought and when I boarded the train I sat down followed by a few people. The young lady in front of me was talking to two other young men. As they sat down they started talking about the end of the world, at what time was suppose to happen etc, etc. One of them mentioned he had seen someone selling a survival kit online, etc, etc. Their conversation was very loud so I decided to put my headphones on and launch some tunes... thinking: I'm sick of this nonsense!

I fell asleep!

I never fall asleep on my way into work, I only woke up at the right station because people around me were getting up to get off. Glasgow is a very busy station and most people get off where I get off.

Queen Street Station

I opened my eyes and with a fright discovered I had made it into Glasgow and worse, that I had been sleeping!

In a rush, got off the train, forgot my umbrella under my seat and dropped my gloves I had on my lap somewhere on my way out.

I arrived at work disappointed but happy I was on time and didn't wake up at the end of the train journey: Edinburgh.

I worked as usual but at around 11am I had a high pitch sound in my ears, not in the one ear but in both and by lunch time I was feeling really tired again. What?

I went into the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked sleepy, tired, pale with black circles around my eyes. I thought: "right, I'll have lunch and will go out for a walk"

I had my vegetables at lunch and went out for a walk. Outside I realised I was feeling really heavy, all I wanted to do was to lie down. Added to the sound in my ears, was the feeling of dizziness and loss of balance too.
The ascension symptoms all at once. This was the time I have been envisioning and knew I should have taken the day off but there was no way I could have done that. Too busy time of year at work.

I decided to stand near the entrance of a shopping centre in order to remain still. The usual sound of people walking and being noisy was very distant. I thought something major was probably happening to the Earth so had a look in my iPhone for the Earthquake data, and loaded the quake list. Nothing of extreme magnitude was recorded. Last time, when Japan's earthquake hit, I was feeling a little bit the same way, but less heavy.

I wanted to text my husband to say that I wasn't feeling too well, in case something happened to me but the iPhone had lost it's signal and wasn't texting. I felt like laughing because it all seemed like a dream. So ridiculous because without paying attention to the new beginning today and trying to ignore it by carrying on working my physical body had decided otherwise.

My lunch hour was nearly up so I went back to work and mentioned to one of my colleagues that I wasn't feeling great. I expected him to joke some "end of the world joke" but instead looked concerned.

I was working away when another colleague, who sits next to me, said I wasn't looking too good. I wasn't feeling sore or anything like that.

When I was on the train home from work I fell asleep again and woke up before I had to get off, luckily. Walking home from the train station I remembered a dream I had this morning! Goodness, I can't believe I only remembered then!

Now home I decided to write it down, just in case I didn't remember the details by tomorrow.

Someone I met in my dream had a very lengthy conversation with me during my sleep.


My dream went like this:


I was driving a white convertible... when I arrived to a street junction and was about to turn someone called my full name: Carolyn Aitken?

I pulled aside and got off the car. He was a bald man, I thought he probably knew me so I approached. He had the greenest eyes I have ever seen. As I was standing in front of him, he started communicating with thoughts to me, no words.

Relieved I thought: "great! I don't have to think in what language do I have to translate what I want to say" ahhh.. thank you!

I wish I could remember the conversation, because it went on for so long. I only remember going through my anatomy.  I ended my thoughts by showing him my hands. I seemed to be picturing all the anatomy of my body through my mind to his. I don't know if this was a confirmation that I was in human form or if he needed to check my wellness but he wasn't human nor was anybody I knew.

He looked like a middle age male, taller than me, bold, caucasian type of skin complexion with extremely bright green eyes (like lights). I remember thinking he was humanoid but not human.

Now, thinking back on today's events... After years of talk of the ascension process and how we would align our hearts and minds with the Universe I realised that this was actually happening today and was very real.

I guess our beautiful planet is on another level now.


Win!


This was my sleep cycle last night:

20-21. 12 . 2012

Dream ~ White Orb

Just before I went to sleep I was trying to do some recapitulation. If you have read The Art of Dreaming by Carlos Castaneda you might know what this exercise is about.

It is one of the most difficult things to do in my opinion. It consists in reviewing one's life in order to successfully master awareness and energy. Carlos Castaneda explained that recapitulating an event starts with one's mind arranging everything pertinent to what is being recapitulated.
Arranging means reconstructing the event, piece by piece, starting by recollecting the physical details of the surroundings, then going to the person with whom one shared the interaction and then going to oneself, to examine one's feelings.

I realised that I have been trying to do this for most part of the year without success. I have a very good memory so recapitulation is the most complex thing that my mind can engage into. Harder than any math equation.

My mind wonders after a while and forgets about going into the next event or fails to see everybody in that event. I can normally manage to do this for about one hour and then either fall asleep if in bed, or realise that I was doing something wrong, so suddenly stop, get up and do something else.
I have even tried doing this eyes closed during my train journey but the journey is not long enough to recapitulate in full.

Last night while falling asleep I thought I might want to dream of recapitulating because it might just be easier in dreamland.

To my wonderful surprise I managed to recapitulate during my dream in one of my cycles!

I felt so very heavy, my body was heavier than usual and I felt I had used all my energy so I said to myself during my dream: I hope I can go to bed early because I need to sleep, my body needs some rest.
But after a few seconds I realised that I was already dreaming... usually when this happens I try my best to remain asleep and carry on dreaming... and I did! I went to bed in my dream, in my current bedroom and tried to fall asleep inside my dream but the fact that I have completed the recapitulation made me so happy that I got up and noticed a big white orb near the ceiling. I floated to the orb and asked what did it come to tell me. I shouted so loud in my dream that I woke up.

Once awake, I went to the bathroom and was a bit annoyed that I had woken up. In a flash I tried to remember everything in the dream so I could go back into the same scene.

Went back to sleep and this morning realised that I managed to go back inside the same dream, how amazing!

I went back to the orb, flying or floating. When my face just in front of it, slowly and without talking I thought of the recapitulation and how happy I was that I managed to review every single event in my life. Spontaneously the orb's thoughts were clear to me then. The orb with thoughts said to me: "now that you have recapitulated, who do you want to save? if you could save one thing."

I thought to myself: "What? I can't possibly save one! ONE!??? I love every single person I have met in my life. I thought for a few seconds and said: One thing, huh?

Well, "The Human Race" on and off planet.

To that I woke up.

I was so chuffed to have saved everyone, hahhaha... What a noble thought, I thought.

Later, when analysing the dream, this is my interpretation of it: to see an orb in a dream symbolises truth and a sudden understanding or realisation. I had clarity after recapitulating on my life events. The colour of the orb represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness and new beginnings. Perhaps referring to a fresh outlook on life. Then the fact that I was asked the question it could be my subconscious teasing me after thinking of everyone, in this kind of: well, who do I choose? My answer amuses me, because the orb seemed foreign and my thought is truly human trying to save her own species.


This was my sleep cycle last night: